...right. I remember you talking to me about that before - and about how you're always going to be comparing yourself to him, as well?
[Ishimaru settles himself down on the grass next to Mondo, kneeling down and sitting back on his heels; he isn't looking away, studying Mondo while he thinks.]
I think...part of the reason it's hard for me to understand that sort of thing is because the legacy I have to surpass isn't a good one. I know what it's like to be scrutinized like that, but...
[He pauses for a moment, brow knitting a bit; he's not entirely sure how to articulate what he's thinking. His sense of empathy in general has never been great, either; he...thinks he knows what he's doing, but he can't be sure.
The most that can really be done is just plow right on ahead with it, right?]
...in my case, it was always about not repeating the same mistakes, not falling into the same trappings, and not driving myself to ruin. Not allowing history to repeat itself, I guess. So having to live up to someone else who left behind a legacy of greatness instead of defeat...it's not something I'm familiar with, it's not something I can understand very easily.
That's why I ask you about it so much; it...might take a while for me to understand. That's all.
[...was that...acceptable, he has no idea how acceptable that was.]
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[Ishimaru settles himself down on the grass next to Mondo, kneeling down and sitting back on his heels; he isn't looking away, studying Mondo while he thinks.]
I think...part of the reason it's hard for me to understand that sort of thing is because the legacy I have to surpass isn't a good one. I know what it's like to be scrutinized like that, but...
[He pauses for a moment, brow knitting a bit; he's not entirely sure how to articulate what he's thinking. His sense of empathy in general has never been great, either; he...thinks he knows what he's doing, but he can't be sure.
The most that can really be done is just plow right on ahead with it, right?]
...in my case, it was always about not repeating the same mistakes, not falling into the same trappings, and not driving myself to ruin. Not allowing history to repeat itself, I guess. So having to live up to someone else who left behind a legacy of greatness instead of defeat...it's not something I'm familiar with, it's not something I can understand very easily.
That's why I ask you about it so much; it...might take a while for me to understand. That's all.
[...was that...acceptable, he has no idea how acceptable that was.]