yeah of course it is it's still kind of dumb to start thinking that everything is okay now though i mean it's not like the others are suffering but... shit i dunno it's hard to put into words
...hang on, he did the thing again, didn't he. He's trying to get better about not doing the thing where he skips steps halfway inbetween when he's explaining something, but he's been doing the thing for years and hanging out with Alice lately besides, and she also does the thing, so...
Come on, Ishimaru, try not to do the thing.]
No, I understand what you mean.
I think what's happening now, though, is that we're happy that Fujisaki-kun and Asahina-kun are back. And we should be! It was hard when they left, especially Fujisaki-kun. And even if seeing them again doesn't make everything okay, we still feel like that because it feels like everything might be okay one day, even if it's not now.
[...Ishimaru, how the hell was anyone with a halfway linear line of thinking supposed to get that out of what you said previously.]
oh okay i get it! yeah that's right it's great that they're back and i don't mean to sound like i'm not happy for that or anything! thanks for explaining that though
[Yeah, Ishimaru... sometimes extra steps are needed...]
Well, you've explained a lot of things such that they make more sense to me now, for one thing!
For another, you're a decent gauge for whether I should say something or not - if saying it to you would probably make you angry, it's likely something that shouldn't be said; if it's something that would make me angry if someone else said it to you, it definitely shouldn't be.
...You also make this one certain expression a lot, and if I say something that gets that expression that's a sign that I should probably start apologizing.
oh that's actually a pretty good way to think of it though a lot of stupid shit makes me angry sometimes so it's probably not the most reliable method but it's definitely a good start!
yeah? like if you're trying to intimidate someone? or keep yourself from laughing at a really bad time? or like when you have to lie about something to spare someone's feelings?
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you know i actually think i will be
i thought i'd be really upset about all this and scared and shit
but i'm not
maybe it hasn't sunk in yet
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Could you do me a favor when you're done speaking to Fujisaki?
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you're really the only person i can talk to about this shit
sure what is it?
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I've been trying to teach Naegi-kun, but I want someone who'll actually go hard - would you mind practicing with me for a while?
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i'd love to!!
it's been awhile since i practiced but i'd really like that!
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...I think everything's going to be okay, kyoudai. Between Fujisaki-kun and Asahina-kun, people are coming back. Maybe Kuwata-kun will as well.
It's optimistic.
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yeah it really is
i'm really glad they've come back
even if they don't remember being here before
it feels like maybe everything'll be okay now
but that sounds kind of stupid
we've got to get the others here before anything will be okay
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It's more hopeful than anything, I think.
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it's still kind of dumb to start thinking that everything is okay now though
i mean it's not like the others are suffering but...
shit i dunno it's hard to put into words
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...hang on, he did the thing again, didn't he. He's trying to get better about not doing the thing where he skips steps halfway inbetween when he's explaining something, but he's been doing the thing for years and hanging out with Alice lately besides, and she also does the thing, so...
Come on, Ishimaru, try not to do the thing.]
No, I understand what you mean.
I think what's happening now, though, is that we're happy that Fujisaki-kun and Asahina-kun are back. And we should be! It was hard when they left, especially Fujisaki-kun. And even if seeing them again doesn't make everything okay, we still feel like that because it feels like everything might be okay one day, even if it's not now.
[...Ishimaru, how the hell was anyone with a halfway linear line of thinking supposed to get that out of what you said previously.]
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yeah that's right
it's great that they're back and i don't mean to sound like i'm not happy for that or anything!
thanks for explaining that though
[Yeah, Ishimaru... sometimes extra steps are needed...]
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...Was it that far off?
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okay yeah it was kind of bad
it's harder to pick up on shit through text you know it's not that big of a deal!!
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You know, surprisingly, this is not going to result in a shrieking fit today.]
No, it's okay - I've been trying to work on that.
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i can't read tone in text for shit
like you could be writing everything sarcastically and i wouldn't have any idea
but i do think it's good that you're working on it!
you do sometimes lose me in conversation
but i'm sure you're getting better with it!
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But you've been helping me a lot with working on that sort of thing, actually, in several ways.
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it would be pretty weird if you suddenly got sarcastic on me
oh? how?
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For another, you're a decent gauge for whether I should say something or not - if saying it to you would probably make you angry, it's likely something that shouldn't be said; if it's something that would make me angry if someone else said it to you, it definitely shouldn't be.
...You also make this one certain expression a lot, and if I say something that gets that expression that's a sign that I should probably start apologizing.
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though a lot of stupid shit makes me angry sometimes so it's probably not the most reliable method
but it's definitely a good start!
what expression are you talking about?
[The one he's wearing right now?]
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Trust me, you do it a lot.
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i don't think i'm consciously doing it
i mean i'm pretty sure i'd know if i was doing it on purpose
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[...Ishimaru, this actually explains a lot about you, doesn't it.]
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yeah?
like if you're trying to intimidate someone?
or keep yourself from laughing at a really bad time?
or like when you have to lie about something to spare someone's feelings?
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you never do any of that do you
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Am I supposed to?
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well uh
"supposed to" might not be the right term for it
but most people do?
especially if it's something to spare someone's feelings or something
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