diamondo: (✦ 18)
Mondo Ōwada (大和田 紋土) ([personal profile] diamondo) wrote2014-06-19 07:01 pm

EIGHTH RIDE ✦ ANONYMOUS TEXT

What's the worst thing you've ever done? How did you recover from it?

I did something awful back home and the guilt's been eating me up ever since. I have some days where everything's fine and I don't even think about it. Other days it's all I can think about and I can barely do anything. I'm not saying I want to get rid of the guilt entirely because that's not possible, but how do you cope with it? I think it's about time I try to deal with it in other, healthier ways.

...Actually, while I'm on the subject, what's the worst thing someone's ever done to you? Did you forgive them? If so, how? I'm not the sort of person that can forgive easily, but holding onto a grudge forever is pretty awful.


[Look at that, he even went to all the trouble of typing properly so as to hide his identity! He even took out the numerous foul words that originally peppered the message!]
ardent: (And now you steal away)

[personal profile] ardent 2014-06-20 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
What sort of logic is that?

No, I didn't kill them, but they're still dead because of me.
twinsanity: (I'll make you sorry you were born)

[personal profile] twinsanity 2014-06-20 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
How many died?

You're not going to appall me with it. My answer for "the worst thing I've ever done" involves killing my father.
codeforhope: [game sprite] (● a sunny day)

[personal profile] codeforhope 2014-06-20 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
Yes. I know how that feels.
ardent: (And now you steal away)

[personal profile] ardent 2014-06-20 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
You sound like someone I know when you say that.

It doesn't help when he says it, either.
twinsanity: (Not with the likes of you)

[personal profile] twinsanity 2014-06-20 01:23 am (UTC)(link)
He wronged both my sister and me. That's why I don't feel bad about it, not really. Sometimes I think I do, but I can usually work that out of my system quickly enough.

Who was it, in your case?
ardent: (You knew the game and played it)

[personal profile] ardent 2014-06-20 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
It doesn't make it any more true.
twinsanity: (I'll make you sorry you were born)

[personal profile] twinsanity 2014-06-20 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
You wouldn't have put this out there for the world to see if you didn't want to talk about it.
ossifragant: (Φ waiting for our ship to come)

[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-06-20 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes it's best to talk these things out. The person I'm talking about is someone I couldn't ever have a reasonable discussion with, but there are people here I could.

You'd be surprised what a person can forgive.
ardent: (And now you steal away)

[personal profile] ardent 2014-06-20 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
It changes things when it's the most important person in the world to you who's dead.
twinsanity: (That will never do)

[personal profile] twinsanity 2014-06-20 01:35 am (UTC)(link)
What is it with everyone on this godforsaken rock asking everyone else for advice for unspecified problems? You're all going to get exactly nowhere with it.

At least verify if you murdered these two people yourself or they just happened to die because of you.
ardent: (I'm sorry that you never made it)

[personal profile] ardent 2014-06-20 01:47 am (UTC)(link)
Nothing that's said is really going to make it better; I've had people trying to make it better for months. It's better for everyone if I just tell them that it's working and I'm okay; that way they don't have to deal with it anymore.

...I would ask you to tell me if you ever find a healthy way to deal with it, but I don't really want to tell you who I am. I'm sorry.

I hope you work it out eventually, though.
twinsanity: (You don't know me like you really should)

[personal profile] twinsanity 2014-06-20 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
Well, yes. At risk of repeating the obvious, they did die because of you.

You say that sometimes it's all you can think about. What do you do with yourself on those days?

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