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[diamondo]

What's the worst thing you've ever done? How did you recover from it?

I did something awful back home and the guilt's been eating me up ever since. I have some days where everything's fine and I don't even think about it. Other days it's all I can think about and I can barely do anything. I'm not saying I want to get rid of the guilt entirely because that's not possible, but how do you cope with it? I think it's about time I try to deal with it in other, healthier ways.

...Actually, while I'm on the subject, what's the worst thing someone's ever done to you? Did you forgive them? If so, how? I'm not the sort of person that can forgive easily, but holding onto a grudge forever is pretty awful.

[Look at that, he even went to all the trouble of typing properly so as to hide his identity! He even took out the numerous foul words that originally peppered the message!]

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[twinsanity]

Well, yes. At risk of repeating the obvious, they did die because of you.

You say that sometimes it's all you can think about. What do you do with yourself on those days?

[diamondo]

I do a lot of physical stuff. Running and lifting weights, that sort of stuff. If I've worn myself out then I work on training my Pokémon. Sometimes it helps, but more often than not it really doesn't.

[twinsanity]

Write down everything you're thinking, everything that's on your mind, everything you hate about yourself, everything you want to change but can't. Everything that's making you angry. All of your insecurities.

When you're done, fold up the paper you wrote it on, draw a symbol on it, and then burn it. Don't think about what you wrote, just think about whatever it you drew, and watch the pages burn.

Whenever you get too absorbed in self-loathing, just picture that symbol burning for a while.

It's something they had me do at uni a few times, because that particular professor hadn't figured out that it was no longer the 1960s. It's calming if you're in the right mood for it; I'm usually not, but it's something to keep in mind anyway.

[diamondo]

You know, that's actually not a bad idea. Even if it doesn't work, at least it'll waste some time and burning shit's kind of therapeutic.

[twinsanity]

Well, there we go.

Don't say I never did anything for you, asshole or not.