EIGHTH RIDE ✦ ANONYMOUS TEXT

[diamondo]

What's the worst thing you've ever done? How did you recover from it?

I did something awful back home and the guilt's been eating me up ever since. I have some days where everything's fine and I don't even think about it. Other days it's all I can think about and I can barely do anything. I'm not saying I want to get rid of the guilt entirely because that's not possible, but how do you cope with it? I think it's about time I try to deal with it in other, healthier ways.

...Actually, while I'm on the subject, what's the worst thing someone's ever done to you? Did you forgive them? If so, how? I'm not the sort of person that can forgive easily, but holding onto a grudge forever is pretty awful.

[Look at that, he even went to all the trouble of typing properly so as to hide his identity! He even took out the numerous foul words that originally peppered the message!]

Comments

[diamondo]

Oh well, that would explain it, I guess. I still don't think you need to feel that bad about it. You didn't kill them yourself, right? It's understandable to feel bad about doing something that lead to someone's death, but at the same time, I don't think you need to beat yourself up that bad over it?

[ardent]

What sort of logic is that?

No, I didn't kill them, but they're still dead because of me.

[diamondo]

Yeah, but you didn't kill them. Besides, are you sure it's really all your fault? You might interpret it that way, but it might not really be that way, you know?

[ardent]

You sound like someone I know when you say that.

It doesn't help when he says it, either.

[diamondo]

Well if there's two of us saying that then maybe you oughta try listening.

[ardent]

It doesn't make it any more true.

[diamondo]

Well have you tried considering it from that point of view?

[ardent]

It changes things when it's the most important person in the world to you who's dead.

[diamondo]

Oh. I guess I understand that. I'm sorry to hear it.

[ardent]

Nothing that's said is really going to make it better; I've had people trying to make it better for months. It's better for everyone if I just tell them that it's working and I'm okay; that way they don't have to deal with it anymore.

...I would ask you to tell me if you ever find a healthy way to deal with it, but I don't really want to tell you who I am. I'm sorry.

I hope you work it out eventually, though.

[diamondo]

That's alright. Considering all you've said, if you outed yourself it might end up being pretty weird or something.

I hope I work it out as well. I really hope you find a way to at least be okay with everything that happened.

[ardent]

"Pretty weird" is one way of putting it, I think. It's easier to discuss personal things like this when there are no names attached to it.

Thanks, though.