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[diamondo]

What's the worst thing you've ever done? How did you recover from it?

I did something awful back home and the guilt's been eating me up ever since. I have some days where everything's fine and I don't even think about it. Other days it's all I can think about and I can barely do anything. I'm not saying I want to get rid of the guilt entirely because that's not possible, but how do you cope with it? I think it's about time I try to deal with it in other, healthier ways.

...Actually, while I'm on the subject, what's the worst thing someone's ever done to you? Did you forgive them? If so, how? I'm not the sort of person that can forgive easily, but holding onto a grudge forever is pretty awful.

[Look at that, he even went to all the trouble of typing properly so as to hide his identity! He even took out the numerous foul words that originally peppered the message!]

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[diamondo]

[WELL LOOK WHO IT IS. Hi, Fujisaki. Mondo hesitates, considering leaving this alone and not responding, but he decides that he really doesn't have a choice. He needs to talk to Fujisaki eventually. He's been doing a great job avoiding the kid, but that's pretty awful and it definitely isn't helping with the guilt issues.

Time to man up.]

You're definitely a better person than me. I've been really bitter in the past and held grudges for things that didn't really matter. I guess it's not something I can really learn easily, but I don't want to keep doing that sort of thing.

Thanks for the advice. I've been trying to get myself involved in things, but no matter what I do I keep getting distracted. I guess I just need to find something that requires more attention or something.

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[codeforhope]

[HI MONDO. Or well, hi...anon, rather.]

Oh, well I...I wouldn't say that. But thank you. And you're welcome.

Talking about it is supposed to help too, but I understand that most of the time that isn't always the best idea. Especially if it is something you would rather keep to yourself.

If it helps you at all, I think that you are very brave for asking for help about this in the first place.

[diamondo]

I've talked to a couple of people about it. It never really made me feel any better. Especially when they'd be supportive. I just wanted to say "no, I'm not worthy of your support. What I did was awful and you shouldn't waste your time trying to help me." Which sounds really shitty, like I don't want their help or anything. It's really complicated.

Thanks though. I mean it. I wouldn't call this "brave" more like "really stupid" but I just wanted to see if anyone else had any ideas about it. That's the great thing about this place, you can just ask people questions like this and see what they say.

[codeforhope]

[Mmm...]

Yes, I agree. I think I understand what you are saying, though. It doesn't make much sense, but...you want help, but at the same time you feel like you don't. It can be very frustrating.

It is nice to know that there are people here who will be willing to listen regardless.

[diamondo]

Yeah, exactly. People have been pretty nice and supportive so far. I'm kind of surprised. I thought more people would show up and be rude or something.

[codeforhope]

I suppose that just goes to show you how people can surprise you, sometimes.

[diamondo]

At least it's a positive surprise. I guess I'm used to those sorts of surprises being negative...

[codeforhope]

Yes. I know how that feels.

[diamondo]

It sucks that people have done that to you. You seem really nice.

[GOD HE'S SUCH A COWARD]

[codeforhope]

[SHHHHH]

Thank you. Sometimes you can't help what other people do, or think. You just have to do what you can to work past it.

[Or change yourself entirely.]

[diamondo]

Yeah. It's hard to work past some of these things, but I'll keep trying.

[codeforhope]

Good luck. I trust that you will be able to do it. Just don't give up.