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What's the worst thing you've ever done? How did you recover from it?

I did something awful back home and the guilt's been eating me up ever since. I have some days where everything's fine and I don't even think about it. Other days it's all I can think about and I can barely do anything. I'm not saying I want to get rid of the guilt entirely because that's not possible, but how do you cope with it? I think it's about time I try to deal with it in other, healthier ways.

...Actually, while I'm on the subject, what's the worst thing someone's ever done to you? Did you forgive them? If so, how? I'm not the sort of person that can forgive easily, but holding onto a grudge forever is pretty awful.

[Look at that, he even went to all the trouble of typing properly so as to hide his identity! He even took out the numerous foul words that originally peppered the message!]

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[text] I am so sorry for the repeated edits

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[It's been a long time and she tries not to dwell on negative feelings anymore, but if it's a question she's going to try and answer it. She won't bother with anon because, well, she doesn't care who knows, it's not like she's been secretive about what her life's like.]

I almost got my best friend killed because I went into a situation without knowing if I could get out of it. He has a scar now. We don't talk about it anymore. Sure, I was guilty about that, I still feel sad that it happened occasionally. But sometimes things just happen and there's nothing you can do about it, it's how you learn from it and move on that counts. I don't know if that can apply to your own situation, since everyone is different, but it's what I've learned.

[As for that other, there's her father breaking up the family with his cheating, but that's too small-time. She can forgive him for that eventually, she's starting to actually, though she still doesn't trust him. Then Maka thinks of Medusa and that familiar spark of hatred comes back.]

And that... The most unforgivable person I know took away another friend from me. She claims that she's his mother, but the way she treated him like an experiment and personal weapon is in no way motherly. The reason I won't be able to see him anymore is because of her, and my only regret is I wasn't the one that killed her. I can't guarantee I wouldn't try if she ended up here, either. If that's holding onto a grudge, I'm just fine with it, I can never forgive a person as inhuman as that.

[Somehow those two situations are related, so it's not strange to her to say them both.]